7/02/2012

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Hidup seadanya. Meniti hari, menghitung hari. Entah untuk apa. Perjalanan mencari ilmu duniawi utk jadi bekalan hidup. Otak dah beku, susah terikat dengan biasiswa dan rasa terhutang budi ...dan segalanya membuat kan aku rasa bersalah.

I don't know what the future lies for me, nobody knows actually. Back then when being offered a place to study at any universities, feeling of exhilaration appeared and entering those places, u can feel the warmth of welcome since to these days.

But here that feeling was lost, cold and empty. An ancient tomb. Maybe it is me. I want to stop the blame on others but that feeling kept on creeping and stayed until now. I can't imagine how the ppl of this country lives..they were born here and has been leaving the tradition of lives. I miss home but not the life that I left.
God, help me.
Stuck and Lost!