2/05/2012

MY BEAUTIFUL WORLD FROM ALLAH

You are my world...my views....my anger....my history..my amanah..my love..for papa.



I hope the sacrifices that we have gone through will be remembered as the will to move on with "redha Allah". This is how my prayers answered by GOD. Qada dan qadar keketentuan ALLAH...with doa. OKEY...Let's move on....with LIFE. INSYALLAH. GOD IS GREAT...Allahuakbar.

2/03/2012

Maher Zain - Open Your Eyes | Official Lyrics Video

If only u knew...

Maher Zain - For The Rest Of My Life | Official Music Video



Andai kau tahu kasih ku pd mu...namun siapalah kite utk menidakkan kuasa ALLAH. Ku terima dirimu seadanya, namun andai kau jadikan kata2 org lain utk menilai kasih ku....maka aku rela melepaskan diri mu. Kerna org lain x berhak menilai kebahagiaan kita, menjejaki dan berkongsi cerita ttg aku isteri mu. Hampir sepuluh thn...perjalanan suka duka telah kite lalui...payah...cemas...gembira...sedih..pelbagai rasa tlh ku lalui. Impian ku hanya satu...ingin berasa tenang bersamamu dan kekasih2 hati ku. It is very difficult to say how much I hope for happiness that I have chosen. You told me u chose me..but i guess...i chose u for the reason that Allah only knows.

It is not fair in asking me to include myself to the lowest to become in your family..the truth is I don't like ur mom...but she is one GOOD lady...ALLAH knows that....but I can't like her just because she is ur mom...I am only the daugther in law..sometimes there are conflicts that better not spoken...afraid of hurting each other feelings.

Susahnya menjaga hati..hingga kadang2 hati kite juga terluka. Tapi insyAllah aku tahu menjaga dan mendidik hati ku sendiri...hati insan lain...hanya ALLAH yg maha mengetahui.

2/02/2012

This in NOW or Never !

Sharing knowledge from www.iluvislam.com:
Rasulullah telah meninggalkan beberapa petua untuk mengubati penyakit lisan dan petua yang berguna untuk mengubati penyakit-penyakit lain seperti suka memfitnah, mengumpat, menipu, bercakap kotor dan sebagainya selain mulut celupar.
Pertama, Rasulullah menyuruh kita diam apabila terdorong untuk bertutur perkara yang tidak sepatutnya.
Sahabat Abu Syuraih Al-Khuza'iy r.a. menyatakan bahawa Rasulullah pernah berpesan, "Sesiapa yang beriman kepada Allah dan Hari Akhirat, maka hendaklah dia bercakap hanya perkara yang baik atau diam."
Kedua, Rasulullah menyuruh kita berzikir bagi mengimbangi aktiviti lidah. Kebanyakan dari kita menggunakan lidah untuk kemudahan dan kepentingan diri dan terlupa memuji pencipta lidah setiap hari. Kata-kata yang dihasilkan oleh lidah dalam memuji pencipta lidah lebih sedikit berbanding dengan kata-kata yang dihasilkan ketika berkomunikasi sesama kita. Kedua-dua kalimat itu adalah 'subhanallah wa bihamdihi' dan 'subhanallah hil azim' yang membawa maksud 'Maha suci Allah dan segala pujian kepadaNya' dan, 'Maha suci Allah yang Maha Besar.'
Ketiga, Rasulullah mengajar agar kita sentiasa beristighfar untuk mengelakkan lidah kita dari terus 'rancak' membicarakan perkara yang kita sendiri tidak ketahui akan kesahihannya.
Istighfar bermaksud memohon keampunan dan kita digalakkan untuk beristighfar sekurang-kurangnya dengan mengucapkan, 'Astaghfirullahazim' disertakan 'perasaan menyesal' di dalam hati.

Doa Yang Mustajab : Waktu dan Amalannya | iluvislam.com + discover the beauty of islam

Doa Yang Mustajab : Waktu dan Amalannya | iluvislam.com + discover the beauty of islam

Wake up? Solat and Doa.. AllahuAkbar!

1/27/2012

Siapalah Kita Untuk Menilai Insan Lain?? | iluvislam.com + discover the beauty of islam

Siapalah Kita Untuk Menilai Insan Lain?? | iluvislam.com + discover the beauty of islam

A favourite quote masa bujang "Sekali gagal, bukan bermakna gagal selamanya. " Terlalu mencipta kesempurnaan sehingga akhirnya takut pd bayang2 sendiri. Di usia yg semakin senja ini ingin menjejak mimpi wlupun terasa adakalanya seakan tersungkur. Kepada insan2 yg pernah atau terdetik di hati mereka aku ini manusia yg pelik, hanya kemaafaan yg mampu aku pohon dan kuberikan.

Antara quotes from this article, motto utk hidup setelah berkeluarga - adaptation from the above (in blue) article.
" Saya juga manusia yang tidak sempurna, kadang tersalah pandang dan underestimated orang lain juga."
" Pandangilah kehidupan dari sudut yang positif. InsyaAllah, hati kita akan tenang... Jangan sesekali memandang rendah kerana setiap sesuatu datang atau terjadi bersebab. Hanya ALLAH yang Maha Mengetahui...".

I luv my families and ISLAM.



1/21/2012

What is life

It's 2012. Another year to go by. Another year to pass by. Reflecting back to myself....life indeed is like the stream. Sometimes it is murky after the rain, sometimes it is as clear as the sky. But I chose to ignore that as the aim as a human being living in the bless world created by Allah, I should be thankful. There are places and ppl who are in need, who is in a much worst situation but the only thing that can be given is a smile as a 'sedekah' though no money can buy 'Keikhlasan sebuah sedekah dengan senyuman'. 

Through this journey, I really hope ALLAH will guide me with "iman and taqwa".  Living in Brunei teaches me   a lot of independence, there are many good things about Brunei. Wallahualam. 'Yg baik dtg dari Allah, yg tidak berapa baik dtg dr diri sendiri'.

10/29/2011

Life in Brunei

Today is not a good day...sad..'terkilan'...just because I bring kids to live with me in the hostel, I am being haunted like I did something bad..something really sinful. Too many unjust reason, saying the kids make noise...bla bla bla...as if having kids around..are not good thing.

Some of the reasons are unjustified actually,...making me  hating this country...a so called Islamic country but money is more of the reason. If u have no money, there is no service.

Even if u ask for help as a Muslim...they will not openly helped u though explaining that a help is needed.

10/01/2011

Tired....Emotion of feelings

Salam frenz out there....its October. A lot of things having being undone..programming..new language..to learn and adapted..doing phd is a tiring and very emotional journey. When u r alone...doing the simplest thing..seem very difficult...very far....

Tried hard to juggle my time with the kids and programming using Netlogo. My emotional meter seemed very down...since my arrival in Brunei..having to cope with the slow administration, life..unhelpful situation. I tried to take things one step at time but...it doesn't go that way.


NEED A BREAK...but my SV said need to see him  every day for progress. Can u imagine it? GOD help me..
There is a drum in the heart of heart

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=robmc3CTGOE

8/20/2011

14 Aug 2011

I have finished reading the book written after 41 years of Wan Mokhtar Ahmad services to nation, faith and the country. His "Kisah yang panjang" was light and easy reading but such a memorable and full of inspirations. Its like he was leading readers to the rightful ways in administration (administrating) - in the Islamic ways. Allahuakbar! There are so many inspired advices in this biography.
It does change my perspective in politics. Its not as dirty as what I think but ppl that makes it dirty. Once you are on top, you have to bear in mind that your responsibilities are for the countrymen, nation and faith. But when your tenure end, do not begrudge and blame others.

Reda atas sesuatu perkara yg terjadi kpd kita mmg agak sukar utk dilakukan, ttp mungkin dengan melupakannya & meneruskan kehidupan dgn memanjatkan harapan kepadaNYA blh membuat kita redha.
Excerpt from the book " Mrk bekerja berpandu keapda GO (General Orders atau FO - Financial Orders) dan tidak mahu melanggar sedikit pun arahan tersebut walaupun utk kebaikan. Bagi saya, GO dan FO ini merupakan panduan kerja sahaja supaya para petugas tidak tersasul dlm menjalankan tugas. Akal yg dikurniakan ALLAH itu wajarlah digunakan dng betul dlm usaha melicinkan tugas kita disamping tidak menyusahkan org lain."

Muzzakirah - kisah yg panjang

Petikan dari buku 'Muzzakirah" oleh Wan Mokthar Ahmad ms 90 - "Sebagai org baharu, tentu saya akan dikelilingi oleh mereka yang lama dan berpengalaman serba-serbi dlm politik ng. Tentulah harapan Tun Razak yg begitu tinggi kepd saya untuk menunaikan amanah ini sukar untuk dilaksanakan. Saya umpamakan perlantikan itu bagai memandu sebuah kereta terpakai yg menggunakan kelajuan antara 150 - 200 batu sejam, saya bimbang akan berlaku kemalangan"

Sememangnya apabila kita bernama manusia yg sukar utk tidak melakukan kesilapan, kita bimbang untuk memikul amanah..yg sudah tentu memerlukan sebuah pengorbanan. Tidak ada perjalanan yg tidak ada kerikil, batu yg bulat dan tajam, lopak yg dlm dan cetek. Begitulah kehidupan.

Nothing

This excerpt was taken from a book written by Barry Wain - Mahathir .....will get the title later. Just? a bit about this editor - been living in Asia for 37 years (actually residing in Singapore - wonder if still in Asia) and hailed from Australia. Not that I'm pro exPM but there are things or written words about him feel like 'smacking' the author but there are the laws....;-) 
But a quote from the book -"Deputy Prime Minister (Almarhum) Ghafar Baba quoted a Malay proverb with an implicit warning to the monarchy: A just king is adulated, but an unjust one is to be shunned". That is being true...everybody not just the royalties..should be an honest and justing person. 
I am not a fan of this writer...he wrotes as if he knows malay better than the malay. Living in a colonial island with numbers of malay who couldn't voice their opinions and live in a so called develop country ; dare to write things based on others written report.. where were they when the malays fighting communist during the insurgency? Those foreigners out there, you may have come from a more develop country but you have no right to criticize other  country's administration. ALLAH give u guidance in your research...but yet you are unbelievers...only believe in yourself.

8/04/2011

What have been doing for the past days


Mufti or Mahathir - A book. Another reading and excerpt taken from "Mufti Lawan Mahathir" by Ahmad Lutfi Othman. " Org Islam tidak pernah menentang suatu teknologi tinggi ttp tidaklah sampai meruntuhkan asas-asas syariat atau menentang dan melanggari syariat. Kita tidak menentang teknologi, ttp kalau hukumnya haram, tetap kita kata hukumnya haram.....Allah meminta kita menghormati dan mendoakan org yg meninggal dunia dng doa yg baik2 malah Nabi mengharamkan kita mengumpat mereka." . Interview with Mufti Perak - Dato' Haji Harussani Zakaria.

Notes: Not because  I am a perakian I recited & agreed with his statement. But it shows, Islam is simple + there's a thin line separating what is halal or haram.

Mengisi masa lapang - Montana Sky - July 30, 2011

Recollection of what i was doing which is not what i am suppose to do. For the past 8 months I've an indulgence for "readings", to keep my head "check + balance". Reading something that's purely academic, put my head in spins.
Dogpiled
Nora Roberts Collection at www.noraroberts.com. A little bit about her, she is the #1 bestseller author, according to who/what journal or ratings I don't know.
But one thing that I can summarize is that her writing is simple, easy to grasp, funny but a little sexy. I love reading her 2 novels (this is the second reading of her books). I am a bit far behind of her lists of book.  Montana Sky is about the story of the daughters of a rancher, ups and downs of her life, the bitching of sisters...oops the word I used ...sorry for that....but hey...sometimes that's life written in book on paper.

Just try reading one of her books.

7/29/2011

Stress

Heart...why I am feeling there's no way..out. Feelings of not able to do the best...Feeling of very sad...over unfinished business. Ya ALLAH...tenangnya hati..bila mendengar seruan MU. Bantulah hambamu...dlm pencarian ilmu...utk di kongsi.. Sucikan hati ku...berikanlah...hidayah..please help me in finding the way..a path..for my families.
      Tahajjudku sentiasa pdMU.

7/25/2011

For peringatan

6 Musibah Dari Perbuatan Zina

Rasulullah telah mengingatkan: ” Hai kaum muslimin, jauhilah perbuatan zina. Sebab di dalamnya terdapat enam (6) perkara, yang tiga diberikan di dunia dan tiga lainnya diberikan di akhirat. Tiga perkara yang diberikan di dunia:-
  1. Hilangnya kewibawaan dari wajahnya.
  2. Berkurangnya barakah umur.
  3. Dilanda kefakiran yang terus menerus.
Sedangkan tiga (3) perkara yang diberikan di akhirat: Mendapat kemurkaan Allah, dihisab dengan berat, dan mendapat seksa neraka. “
(HR Baihaqi dari Anas)

7/14/2011

To be or not to be

Lately have been feeling a bit melancholy...is it due to the age factor. Or GOD is teaching me to look at life in a different way.... Feeling of joyous, happy and tranquility...are the best feelings that a person can ever have....Alhamdulillah..during my path...ALLAH...has guided and gave me and my siblings much more than what we deserved.
Reading has been and always be one of my hobbies. Currently, I am reading books on our previous PM - Tun Dr M. His current book - A Doctor in the House A memoirs of Tun Dr Mahathir Mohamad borrowed from www.ubd.edu.bn gave me an insights of his journey of life.  A fav.quote from the book pg 23 - There are always lessons to be learnt, if only we have the wisdom to see them.

6/19/2011

WEEKEND

Sometimes, I feel that I cannot control my anger...especially to those whom are nearer to me. I don't know why I can get easily angered on some simple mistakes. GOD !!! Pleasse..help me on managing my anger....sometimes I hate myself for acting such a stupid behaviour....

During my younger days, I don't feel that anger as much as when I am getting older and matured. It seemed like ,,,,the older I am getting the grumpier I became.

Allah...selamatkanlah hambamu ini dari sifat marah kerana sesungguhnya marah itu ...makin hampir dng neraka.